We are still several months away from the first anniversary of Olivia's diagnosis, but as we get closer to the holidays I have started thinking about it more. I think that it is because it's painful for me to think about last year's holidays now that I know that Olivia was sick and feeling so badly and we didn't know it.

I look at photos from last Christmas and in a lot of them O looks exhausted, with bright red cheeks and circles around her eyes.

I found this picture today.

 

It was taken a year ago, give or take a few days and in it, Olivia is wearing her hair exactly as she is wearing it right this minute. She's changed so much - that is what I would be saying about this photo, if diabetes hadn't arrived, but what I can say now is that everything has changed so much. We had no idea what was just around the corner when this photo was taken.